if it makes you happy, it cant be that bad

if it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?

i just finished watching american pie, so i could stop crying
and then i watched crossroads cause i wanted to
and through the process i ate a pint of chunky monkey.
the whole thing..

why am i sad?
my dad called me..
and told me to have more RESPECT for myself
i know...its IRONIC
the one person who has basically spent all of my life
deteriorating my self esteem and breaking me down
and NOT respecting me
tells me that i should have more respect for myself

he tells me that hes not going to do anything for my birthday
and that were going to have a talk
and that im in trouble
because i dont deserve to have anything for my birthday

you know...he ruined my fifteenth birthday and now hes taking this one down with it.

all of this because i went to alexs house
which btw my mom lets me
she calls his house and makes sure his mom is there
i came home early that day too
because someone died
so my dad...can go suck it.

im not going to his house like i was supposed to
my money is gone because my mom thought she wasnt going to have me for my birthday
my summer sucks...
everything sucks...

i want to go to sleep and never wake up
happy early birthday evadne.