girl meets world

eff your mom
thats right i said
i mean your dad did it!
ahh
okay im sorry that was totally uncalled for.

but i just hate is so much when people say that i cant think for myself. I AM VERY CAPABLE THANK YOU. i mean what gives you the right to judge me HUH HUH
exactly, thats what i thought.

omfg, what he wrote in his blog was so totally mean. i mean how could he not have faith that were going to be okay i mean if he doesnt how am i supposed to ? ya kno?
how does he really feel..
gosh, i thought it was done.

but damn that cory matthews DAMN HIM !

finding nemo.

sometimes,
i get stupid.well, most of the time i am. and right now, im just a scared little girl in a candy shop who lost her mom. im freaking out, and i dont know what to do; but when do i ever?

im scared. i do that. im terrified. a-LEE-sa says not to be because things happen for a reason, but what if i dont like the end result. i just want MY alex to hold me. the one i knew the one that loved me. i want HIM to tell me its okay, but idk. maybe a-LEE-sa is right, maybe in the end this will make us stronger.

but im so scared shitless. what did i do? this whole time ive realized whats been happening like ten minutes later. its ridiculous. idk whats going on anymore. im out of control. my life isnt in my hands anymore.

i just want to die.

cant you just let me be.

dear evadne,

im sorry to say this, but no matter how hard you try its useless. he is a part of you now and you cant help it. your stupid for even asking for help. your doomed to a place where nothing else matters, a place where you dont matter. you are now at the feet of someone elses feelings, and all you can do is hope you are recognized.

you love him. so much, its unhealthy. hes your everything, and im sorry he cant realize it. im sorry you cry and im sorry your in pain. you knew this was coming, did you stop it? no. you couldnt. sure, you are a strong girl, but that isnt up to you. not anymore. your his, and that is the end.

because you are evadne, and you love to love. you chose to love him, now embrace it, because you cant run away evadne, not anymore.
Good Luck.

just shut up and put your money where your mouth is

im going to tear up this town, im sick of getting treated less than the rest. i mean i thought i waited, i thought i cried, and i thought i was destroyed just as much as everyone else. if anything, even more. so how is this fair?

im sick of all these couples and theyre cutsie shit. like maybe not cutsie shit but im sick of their stories being so amazing and then having to hear about them. i always tell jesse, im like FUCK ihateyou.

and i just saw dillon's page, and im like oh my shit man. like wtf who is seriously like that. oh wait diana and DILLON. eff you bitches.

i want to tell amazing stories, i want to feel amazing for once.
yea, sure its nice that i hear it, sure i say i believe you and sometimes i do. but maybe just maybe i want to feel it like i deserve it. cause i do. dont i?

im sick of all this bullshit, all it is, is bullshit. shut up and say what you mean. i mean why put people down i mean really WHY does it make you feel just so damn good? just so damn powerful? your stupid. it only hurts you. BECAUSE I AM AMAZING, right ?

fuck your lies.

dead

it was fake..

i wasnt stupid

it was all a lie..

wtf am i doing........

IF THIS ISNT REAL WHY AM I HERE ?!

this isnt real
so whats going on...
ITS ALL A LIE
ALL OF IT
EVERYTHING HE SAID EVERYTHING I LEARNED
ITS FAKE
ITS ALL SO FAKE
GOD......
FUCK IT ALL..

oh, bees

i hate that my phone is broken
i hate that my texting is blocked
i hate that imisshim
why cant i just have him.
the world is unfair
i kinda already knew that, but oh well.

today we took our last ap test
and my buddah we did it
we raped it; we won it, it did not win us.

im proud of us because we ARE magnificent.
i just love tiffany ong and julia tran.
their my favorites(:

jessica hayne made cookies like psh, who ELSE.
LOL:]

i believe we are all magnificent.

no matter how much you know or you dont, you CAN do it.
we all can.

smoke and mirrors

i can be a bitch, i really can.
i know it. i don't try and deny it like some people.

im sick of those sneaky people that talk so much crap behind your back.
and to your face, they just,...they lie.
i mean are they sooo scared of telling the truth?
because if people saw the real bitch that they are they wouldnt have friends.
well,
i think it would be better if people loved you for the truth, because then...are you really friends?
No.

im the kind of person that is straight done with your shit if i find out your talking it.
no excuses to give, we all have them.
no explaining, cause IDGAF.

people may be like man your a bitch, but honestly its THEIR loss.
because no matter what happens the shit the fights the drama
if your a person who is consistent with your character, ill ALWAYS be there to catch you when you fall, friends or not.
everyone deserves someone.
and YOU just dont deserve me.

i love people like
GRACE
atik
diana
and shereen
tahani
jed
alysa
estefani
v&v
your mom.
ETC.
JULIA TRAN
priskilla
and pooja of period four
theres more obviously but my mind is just like lajfdkljakljdfkla
why are girls such bitches
i mean guys

they dont CARE
theyre straight in your face
theres no backstabbing.

i need to let this out..

you are a bitch
a slut..honestly
a fucken poser
wannabe
stupid
drama QUEEN
FAKE
a liar
coniving
so stuck up
selfish
but....this is my blog
and sometimes i have to be mean i have to let it out
i wouldnt say this to your face
cause i have more self control than that

because youre also human and you also have feelings
and i hope you improve your ways before you lose everything
because not even YOU deserves that...

i hope the people that read this dont think of me as a horrible person
im simply human
and so are they
i may forgive them in time
but right now im upset and i have the right to be
i dont want to be
but its life

and its such a bitch.