blows your mind.

i used to be important.
not being conceited or anything, but i used to be important.
i used to matter, and i used to be wanted around.
now what? out of sight, out of mind?
im not cool anymore?
i want to be invited places, i want a real best friend.
i want a relationship like me and grace minus the miles between us.
i want to be linked to my boyfriend, not just some extra(that really isnt wanted or needed)
i want to be wanted and needed SOMEWHERE.
i want a place, i want a person.
im sick of this shit.
so no one asks for evadne anymore.
im just doomed to being a recluse?

i want to be good at things or smart, at least. im sick of completely failing at life. i want to live, i want to take chances. SOMEONE GIVE ME A CHANCE. life was meant to be unexpected NOT BORING. im sick of being stupid, im sick of people thinking of me like i cant do it, or im the F student. i want to go places, i want to have dreams. dreams that can actually happen.

I want to be...happy.