my past 24hrs

feeling slightly disoriented
from this pain erupting
this disappointment in everything
i shouldnt have gone to sleep.
this epic failure of the world gets me everytime, it screams give up already. you kno you want.
i am truly sick of it all, i begin to wonder what is going to happen what is going to stick
my past 24hrs i do not want to relive
it started with a couple of texts of course
depression slowly creeping on me, happiness not wanting to let go.
such a simple outfit i admit but not in a conceited way i kinda looked ???beautiful???
then all of a sudden i hated myself for sleeping, i mean why would i do such a thing? i knew what would happen
we all know this world was way too good to be true.
then a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig humongeous task abrupted me. i had to shop since i now available.
you kno i love shopping with others peoples money but with IDIOTS not moving OMFG!
it was ridiculous and i had to get stuff it was NECCESSARY
and when i didnt i felt bad, cause i felt like i failed ya kno?
my dad needed this or he wouldnt hear the end of it after. so when i didnt find i just felt like
the world was bieng so unfair
i know its not supposed to be i never said i wanted it to.
but to put people down because someone was a little bored is just not appropiate not right not how the world should be.
then i get home and my dads truck got tipied
i just said omg what else could happen ya kno?
i wanted to break.
i wanted to die.
cause i cant be happy can i? i shouldnt of gone to sleep.
i cant forget it any of it.
i guess its a lesson that im supposed to learn but i dont want to forget.
somehow i went wrong really really wrong
and idk what to do
not anymore...

diana your mind speaks mine. but then again. since when are people in love ever in their right mind?