today
was a day of a fiasco.
we had a tutorial today,
yes mother fuhreeking beeken >.<
well,
at the end he started talking about the future for us scholars lmao lies
but he said 10 out of 40 of us will actually make it.
will actually survive the college life and make it.
he said ill tell you right now if your not at one with yourself, youre never going to make it.
i started to cry,
ive never felt at one with myself.
he also started talking about how proud he is of people,
cause theyve grown so much,
and i sat there because i felt indifferent
i felt like a failure.
i didnt get any better
i wasnt better
i wasnt good.
and now, im crying again
its quite pathetic, but i mean its such an imense amount of pressure AND I JUST FAIL.
idk...........who i am.
all i know, is that i love him.
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Well just leave it at that. I feel like we're all not alone. Most of us fear the failure, fear the in ability of acceptance in life. The fact that I can't see my future always worries me. I have dreams, but probably without hardwork none of us can achieve. Think The Pursuit of Happyness. Yeah, I know- Hollywood movies blahgkg. We can all get something if we try, just because of the society we live in right now.
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omgah!! evadne!!!
ReplyDeletedont think that!!
you improved quite alot!!! ive noticedd
especially at that discussion in class that day!!
you were doing spectacular!!! :D
he's just an ass who likes to scare us into do our best... though it doesnt make sense but yea!! dont think youre a failure! ahhhh
he scared me too, again.. but yea youre not a failure. he just didnt have anything nice to say, but I DO!!! youre great wonderful and you have improved whole lot!!
-random comment attack over-
:D